Unforgiven...

A new day .. a new life..
But it doesn't leave me alone .
The cold call of Mnemosyne,
to face it .. to brave it ...
to let go .., forgive.
She follows me .. evrywhr i go ..
Her ministrels ...seeping thru
long dark corridors ..
dank , lonely , hushed
leadin to the Door.
Closed. Shut . Untouched.
Unforgotten .


Time and again ..i give in
Echoing footsteps back in time
sucked into the hush,
the forced hush of impatient voices ..
Inching closer to the untouched cold Door.
the hush more forced ..the voices urgent .
She urges me on ...
time to face it .. to brave it ...
to let go ... forgive.
Open the Door.
Closed . Shut. Untouched.
Unforgotten.


Trembling fingers bracing to push ,
one ear against the door ..
Strains of the giggles of a childhood long lost,
warmth... care...happy smiles.
Lullabies sung to a happy doll,
Laughter in the afternoon swings,
stiffled by a million hands
tearing to shreds
the Robe of Innocence ..
leaving in its wake
a Shroud of Bewilderment..Hurt..Anger...Rage..
shriller and shriller the Lullaby gets ..
till it breaks into Screams..
hushed into uneasy Silence by the Door.
Closed. Shut. Untouched .
Uunforgotten.


Let go ? Unleash tht Hurt ..tht Anger..
tht Hatred suppressed ..?
Courage failed .. Fear reigned .
Fear of tht beast within, aching to lash out..
refusing to trust ...
I retreat...
hating the burden with every bit of me ..
bearing it still...
I retreat...
ignoring Her urging.. fleeing the cold and damp
to the warmth and freedom ...
I retreat into today ...
to my life , my love , my happiness ..
repressing a shudder everytime i look ..
over the shoulder ..
at the Door.
Closed. Shut . Untouched.
Unforgotten.

Unforgiven.